The Battle to love and being loved

Last night I listened to the most recent sermon of J.Piper 'Jesus is the Resurrection and the Life" and as if he would have read my blog of yesterday, it speaks powerfully to me and in my situation, the battle I'm in. Already in his opening prayer he mentions The battle to love and being loved. Never Ever before have I been so much in exactly that battle.

How does God love us and me?
* He does not mainly love us in this life by sparing us suffering and death.
* He mainly loves us by showing us and giving us himself and his glory.
* God loves us mainly by giving us himself and all that he is for us in Jesus.
* Jesus loves us mainly by giving us himself and all that God is for us in him.

How do I measure God's Love?
* Don’t measure the love of God for you by how much health and wealth and comfort he brings into your life. (If that were the measure of God’s love, then he hated the apostle Paul.)
* Measure God’s love for you by how much of himself he shows you. How much of himself he gives you to know and enjoy.

God, I want You, yourself and your glory.
I want to see You, delight in You, I want to know You.
I want to love You!