Relax

I just hurt its part of life right now. The thought came to me that it might be possible to just accept that as a fact. Don’t scream, don’t rebel, and don’t try to fight it, just accept and relax.

Those moments of cramping pain, sometimes triggered by memories, fears or worries, sometimes because I run out of strength to ignore the constant feeling of hurt, they come and they go. I can let them pass praying, counting, holding my breath or just waiting. It does not matter, they pass. Maybe I cry maybe I don’t. I don’t embrace the pain, but I do not run away, either.

I just hurt and there is nothing I can or have to do against it.

God knows, God works and will heal, I relax.