I had a long run and towards the end, me being quite tired and starting to feel the intense pain of exhaustion, my friend suggested to slow down and walk the last part of the round. Somehow I felt like pushing it, kept running and increased speed. The pain increased and my body's reaction made me wonder if I could just fall dead or at least unconscious while pushing to run. Well, I didn't but finished my round, knowing that never before I had pushed like that through the pain.
It's too early to make a final reflection on what all this Experience of pain in the past weeks has worked in me; what I've learned and how God and I benefit from it.
But one thing that became quite clear to me, is that I got a different relationship to pain.
Not even being aware of it, but I always believed that pain is an indicator for something going wrong and that I have to change something, stop or at least slow down. Not anymore though.
Pain might just be part of everything is going right and all it means is that I need to push harder, not being afraid of it's consequences.
It's too early to make a final reflection on what all this Experience of pain in the past weeks has worked in me; what I've learned and how God and I benefit from it.
But one thing that became quite clear to me, is that I got a different relationship to pain.
Not even being aware of it, but I always believed that pain is an indicator for something going wrong and that I have to change something, stop or at least slow down. Not anymore though.
Pain might just be part of everything is going right and all it means is that I need to push harder, not being afraid of it's consequences.
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